Gratitude
1st January 2020
My plan to sleep on time is in ruins because my head is buzzing with a lot of my life.
I've been turning sides, lying in bed for more than an hour when it hit me. I forgot to say thanks.
Aroonema and Akriti. They keep my head on the ground and reality in check. I'd not be able to navigate between the islands of my thoughts without them. They make me realise how far I've come or if I'm too far.
Gaurav, Aditya. I am grateful to these two people for just existing by this point in time. They've catalysed my brain-blossom.
Arib. An 18-year old made me realise how much he has of him than I have of me. He made me realise, unintentionally, that I was becoming a shell with no belonging. With his ittars and his beads, I was left asking myself if I have something of me, for me.
Harshit. I'll always be thankful to him. If it were not for him, I wouldn't have experienced the sea of emotions. I wouldn't have known what love was for me. And if it was possible to love someone without having them around you or even with you. Turns out, it is very much possible.
I should be thankful to so many of those who came and went from my life. Whom I didn't let in but they tried. They've taught me so many things in inexpressible ways. They don't know how much of their minds I stole and kept with me. But I am still grateful to them.
I've learnt to embrace a lot of aspects of me. The in non-idealism, confusion and indecisiveness are all part of the process for me. Even though I'm far from liking myself, I've started to hate myself less.
I have been dishonest to myself a lot many times. But I've learnt to forgive and give me another chance. In the end, I have a lot of wishes but no regrets.
My plan to sleep on time is in ruins because my head is buzzing with a lot of my life.
I've been turning sides, lying in bed for more than an hour when it hit me. I forgot to say thanks.
Aroonema and Akriti. They keep my head on the ground and reality in check. I'd not be able to navigate between the islands of my thoughts without them. They make me realise how far I've come or if I'm too far.
Gaurav, Aditya. I am grateful to these two people for just existing by this point in time. They've catalysed my brain-blossom.
Arib. An 18-year old made me realise how much he has of him than I have of me. He made me realise, unintentionally, that I was becoming a shell with no belonging. With his ittars and his beads, I was left asking myself if I have something of me, for me.
Harshit. I'll always be thankful to him. If it were not for him, I wouldn't have experienced the sea of emotions. I wouldn't have known what love was for me. And if it was possible to love someone without having them around you or even with you. Turns out, it is very much possible.
I should be thankful to so many of those who came and went from my life. Whom I didn't let in but they tried. They've taught me so many things in inexpressible ways. They don't know how much of their minds I stole and kept with me. But I am still grateful to them.
I've learnt to embrace a lot of aspects of me. The in non-idealism, confusion and indecisiveness are all part of the process for me. Even though I'm far from liking myself, I've started to hate myself less.
I have been dishonest to myself a lot many times. But I've learnt to forgive and give me another chance. In the end, I have a lot of wishes but no regrets.
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